whew! its been ages since i started writing this, and I've definitely been a lazy ass and gained more wieght since then! I haven't properly weighed myself (I've been to embarressed to go to the gym) but as soon as I do I'll let you know what I'm up to. However, I've just been assuming that I weigh about 135 lbs now (oh boy) and I know I'm damn ashamed of it. 20 years old and gaining chunk? thats not the way of the college girl!

I found this neato site that let me calculate how many calories I should eat a day to lose weight. Check it out here:

http://nutrition.about.com/library/bl_nutrition_guide.htm

Anywho, they told me:

Women's Calorie Calculator Results

These calorie calculator results will help you understand how many calories you need to maintain your current weight, and the number of calories needed per day to achieve your goal weight in a healthy, steady manner.

You need 2007.2 calories per day to maintain your current weight without exercise.

You need 1943.4 calories per day to reach your goal weight slowly and maintain that weight without exercise.

If you reduce your current caloric intake to 1507.2 calories per day you will lose one pound per week without exercise.

If you increase your current caloric intake to 2507.2 calories per day, you will gain one pound per week.

Exercise and Calorie Needs

If you exercise for 30 minutes each day, you may increase your caloric intake to 2222.2 calories per day and still maintain your current weight.

If you exercise for 60 minutes each day, you may increase your caloric intake to 2490.9 calories per day to maintain your current weight.

If you exercise for 30 minutes each day, you will be able to reach your goal weight with 2150.7 calories per day.

If you exercise for 60 minutes each day, you will be able to reach your goal weight with 2409.9 calories per day.

Macronutrients

The United States Department of Agriculture suggests that approximately 50 percent of your calories come from carbohydrates, about 30 percent from fats, and approximately 20 percent from protein sources. One gram of protein has about four calories, one gram of fat has about nine calories, and one gram of carbohydrate has about four calories.

You need 250.9 grams of carbohydrates, 66.2 grams of fat, and 100.4 grams of protein per day for 2007.2 calories to maintain your weight of 135 pounds.

You need 242.9 grams of carbohydrates, 64.1 grams of fat, and 97.2 grams of protein per day for 1943.4 calories to maintain your goal weight of 120 pounds.
Please remember that these calorie counts are based on the average of the population, you may need to adjust your calorie needs up or down slightly to get the results you want. These results are calculated to help you understand how many calories you need to maintain your current weight, or the number of calories you need to lose weight slowly.

So obviously, gym and calorie counting are my new goal.

the problem is, I am a foodaholic. I eat what I want (most of the time), I consume TONS of chocolate, I eat when I'm bored, I eat when I'm stressed, and I eat just because I've decided that I want to. Even when I'm stuffed to the gills. I'm just chugging away our my food source. How awful is that?

So basically I'm saying GOODBYE to that crazy magazine diet, and HELLO to fruits and veggies and at least an hour of exercise a day. Its almost a new year, and I'm in the mood for some new goals.

My new goal is:
1500-2000 calories a day
1 hour of exercise a day, every day
weigh 120 by January 18th, 2011
have a super-toned body by May 20th, 2011

Here's to dreaming!